JD, of course I'm crying having just finished your post.  No need for me to read "Ole Shep".

Your plan sounds wonderful.  I wish I had had the time to plan when my Magus died.  You are such a loving mommy, JD and Tatty are lucky.

I know nothing I have to offer will make it hurt any less, so I offer you a cyber (hug).

Bon voyage, real JD, to the rainbow bridge!!!

Hello All,

Thank you all for your support.  Joey died quietly in my arms at 7:29 tonight.  I wasn't sure I could stay with him but I did and I am glad I did.  I stayed with him to the end. 

He had a good day.  We did all the things I said and he ate better than he has in the last 6 weeks.  Of course I fed him liver and prime rib which would have made him make terrible messes had he not...........left me tonight.  Sorry, that is wrong...he died tonight.  I took about 60 pictures of him and I video taped him. 

About 3 years ago I bought 2 jasmine candles.  They are set in 8 inch high glass, have actual jasmine flowers at the bottom...preserved, and 24 hours of burning compasisty.  I have never burned them since they were $50 each and were bought to look nice. (and they still smell great).  Tonight they are burning in my window with Joey's 8 X 10 photo in between them.  I will not let them burn until the candles are gone all at once as I must sleep and Tatty needs me.  I will burn them every night (while I am awake) until they are gone. 

LD and Lisabelle, once you told me how to post photos and I know I set up an account but cannot remember where I was told to do it.  While this is about me....I would like to post some photos of Joey and, since none of you have seen Tatty, a few of Tatty.  Can you remind me?

I thought about changing my user name because using Joey will hurt for a while...but I think that would be wrong.  Joey will always be a part of me.

But right now, I have to look after Tatty.  I think she knows Joey is gone...but she is acting like she wants me to bring him back.  If only I could. I cannot.  So from here on she is a priority.  But Joey will never be forgotten and I hope you will indulge me when I speak about him.

BTW, I learned tonight that losing Joey was harder by 1000X than losing my husband.

JD

PS, I am drawing a blank but I know either Lisabelle or LD is a poet.  If I told you some things about Joey, could you write a little poem about him?

PPS, I saw that a couple of you mentioned Rainbow Bridge.  I thought I must have mentioned it but I see I didn't.  When I was a vet I used to send that poem to my clients after they lost an animal.  I told Joey today "Go to Rainbow Bridge, run, be happy and herd all my other bables for me when I come."

Thanx LD.

JD

Hello All,

Thank you all so much for all your support the last couple of days.  You are all great.

I did okay for the most part of the day.  I have been crying for the past 3-4 hours but made it until then.  The candles are burning and the picture of Joey is now in a frame.

Tatty is fretting.  She wont leave the bedroom unless I drag her out.  I gave her some of the left overs from the prime rib dinner last night and she carefully put then on Joey's bed and then sat in her own.  I took her out to the candy store today and for a walk.  When we got home I gave her a Dentabone (her fav snack) which is now sitting on Joey's bed next to the uneaten roast beef.  Some believe animals do not feel, think or communicate.  Tell me she is not hurting and has found a way to tell me!!!! Hopefully tomorrow she will feel a little better.

On that note, while I am heart broken right now, I must blow out the candles and try to sleep.  Tomorrow I will get up bright and early and take Tatty for a walk and maybe to see my folks.  I must keep her busy so she heals. 

JD

Thank you Blondestorm.  I will be in touch with you soon.

4days since I lost my son.  I cry myself to sleep each night.  I dream of him every night.  I dreamt he took me out for a bike ride and we found a little girl dog named maggie the he felt would be perfect for me to have as a new dog.  There is no Maggie and I am not looking yet.  Still, maybe I should name my next female Maggie....althouth Tatty is doing so badly there will be no new dog until she is gone.

Today is day 3 since I lost my son.  Tatty still will not eat.  If I leave her alone she is shaking when I come back.  Tonight she literally jumped 7 stairs.  As a pup she could have done it.  Tonight, she broke her leg.  She is hurting worse that I am and I cannot help her. 

I went to work for part of the day today.  Apparently that hurt Tatty too much.  I am still burning the candles for Joey.  God I miss him.  I want to hold him, etc.

The 'pup' is not doing well.  As I told you she broke her leg tonight and she still will not eat.  Poor little baby.  For over 14 years she has never spent a day without him.  She came to me and woofed before she jumped the stairs.  I had cuddled her, offered her food and took her outside....she is not asking for those things...she is asking for Joey...which I cannot give her or me.

I am afraid I will lose her soon. 

Why is life so hard at times?

JD

Angel, I am not familiar with your reference.  Can you expand please?

Tatty is doing better today.  She ate a little.  The family spent the day here with her today and the dog sitter came to see her.

One day at a time is the only way to go.

JD

I am so sorry to hear about your loss.   You are in my prayers and i wish you beautiful long hair. xo curlygirl