Curlgirl: lol @ "elbowing." More like climbing, crawling, jumping over, pushing aside...  

Magz: Defense mechanism. I've never really thought about it like that before. How interesting.
   You're always so encouraging, sister.    hehehe "award winning anger." Perhaps someday we shall see...not that I do it for awards.

So, I was finally able to borrow my sister's laptop again...without anyone's knowledge. Woohoo!

Both today and yesterday, I had time to do a Pantene Intensive Moisturizing Mask treatment for an hour. Was able to do a load of laundry yesterday as well. My sister was home yesterday morning while I was doing all of this (she's gone today), and I'm not sure whether she's rat f'ed me out yet or not...or whether she's going to. That was her role the last time I lived here...The Tattletale. She told my parents everything that I did, said or told her in confidence, which nearly got me institutionalized at one point.    I trust no one.

But thank God for the time that I actually get to myself.

For the past few days, I've been using 3-4 leave in's: Pantene Light Spray Conditioner, TRESemme (oh zut alors, I can't do the accents-graves on a laptop keyboard!) Detangle Leave In Spray and Pantene Daily Renewal Treatment. Sometimes I oil, sometimes my hair dries before I have time. As was the case yesterday as I was rushing around to get my laundry put away before work.

Speaking of work, I am meeting with the Area Vice President again today to discuss my full-time training schedule. *gulp!* Egad.

No British callers of late. hahaha "callers." I mean customers, of course, not dates. lol I should be so lucky.  

The new floor is installed in the kitchen. Still needs to be sealed. Some people came over yesterday to take measurements for the new countertop. Everything is still a mess, but at least we're all getting along well enough.

Bats Day is in a few days. I hope to God that I'm able to go this year. I've already told a few people that I would make an appearance, so now I'm obligated.    Hope it works out.

Hip training is still going, but not as well as I'd like. Need to get on the ball already!

Oh yes, and hair definitely needs a trim! The ends are beginning to really dry out and spread apart from each other. That's never good. I'll see about calling Scissor Lady today. I now live about 5 minutes away from her house.  

Still carrying the angry undertone around, though it's mellowed out a bit of late, and now I'm mostly just bored and feeling like there's no point to life. Is there? I know it's because I'm not doing what I was meant to do. Whatever. It's time to rinse this treatment out.

Hope everyone else is well. Peace.

Hooorrraaayyy!!  Party time!!!  Congrats!!!  I can see all those shiney CD's now!!!

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And shopping I did. Yesterday was payday, so I decided to take advantage of it. My mother even came in early to relieve me, so I actually had most of yesterday off.  

I'd wanted to go to Disneyland, but ultimately had too much to do. I needed new S & C, as my Pantene Restoratives will be gone tomorrow. I also picked up the plush-est, fluffiest, most luxurious washcloth I could find. Hopefully it will help cut down on shower time. Mother is freakishly obsessive about that.  

With the essentials taken care of, I decided to have a little fun as well. I got Enya's new album, "Amarantine" as well as Thom Yorke's new solo project, "The Eraser." Guess which is in my car's cd player right now?    I also replaced the copy of "Titanic" that I'd lost during the divorce and got "Tristan & Isolde." Thank God for Thom Yorke...his album was the only thing that saved my shopping trip from being entirely girly.  

Anywho, another store found me getting 3 new shirts for work. A bit nicer than what I normally wear. hehe Maybe I'm finally growing out of the "just rolled out of bed & threw on yesterday's clothes" stage. I'll also be getting some nice faux croc skin sneakers with my next paycheck. Angel's moving up...isn't that cute?  

I was hoping to have time for a hair treatment today. I even asked God to get rid of everyone in the house this morning, but I guess He just didn't feel like obliging that request. I ended up hurrying through another shower, as usual. I need to shave, too, but do you think I had time for that either?  

The 'rents said that we were going to Denny's for breakfast, so I put myself together in a hurry...only to get ditched. It ended up being too late for breakfast by the time everyone was ready, and they ended up just going shopping instead. *sigh* But it gave me some time to do a load of laundry...one more thing that must be done in secret.

I'm really worried about the effects that all of this stress and hurrying will have on my hair. It's already looking bad enough as it is, what with the short pieces everywhere. I'm still not sure if they're breakage or new growth, but they look bloody awful. It's all I can do to resist the blow fryer these days.    I feel terrible admitting that.

Oh yes, I should also mention that the new S & C that I picked up is Pantene Ice Shine.    Yup, Ice Shine & "The Eraser"...you listening, Magz?    After everything she's said about Ice Shine, I just couldn't resist trying it out. It's cheaper than my Restoratives anyway. Hope it works!!

I'm actually oiling on a daily basis now. Huzzah! My dry ends rejoice! I've been wondering whether I should buy a satin sleep cap and do heavy oiling treatments at night, since deep conditioning treatments are so irregular now.

My hair is no longer agreeing with the velour scrunchies. The looped ponytail is especially bad - it looks & feels awkward when I put it up. There always seem to be those unseen strands of hair that pull & hurt, and the style usually ends up loosening up and falling out. The ballerina buns fall out, too. I've had my doubts about putting my hair up all the time anyway. I think it may be causing serious breakage, since most of the short ends are right around where the scrunchie usually goes.

Yesterday, I braided and it worked well enough, though I'm still quite inexperienced at braiding my own hair. Not to mention my hair makes one pathetic little braid.  

As far as detangling, I'm using all seamless combs now. My broken RS #45 when wet and a Conair seamless comb when dry. They work well enough, though I'm not sure that I won't just go back to my Conair Velvet brush.

Anyway, I'd better stop typing and get off of this thing before the 'rents come home and catch me with my sister's laptop. Oy.  

Peace out.

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oooOOOooo...where did you find those?  Do tell!   

Whew!! The work week is OVER!!!! Maybe now, I'll actually be able to sleep and get things accomplished! heh Yeah right...

My hair is in desperate need of a deep conditioning treatment and a trim. A Snowy's would be nice, but I left my bottle of honey in that ghetto apartment. As well as my air popper, dangit!!    *sigh*
    I just called my Scissor Lady's house and her daughter answered. Scissor Lady isn't there, and I have my doubts that she'll ever know that I called. UGH! Nothing is going right these days. I totally miss the freedom of being out on my own. I like not paying out the nose just to live....but that's the thing. I'm not living!

Yesterday, my mother got on my case a bit about "shorter showers." You know what? I've already deprived myself as much as possible in the name of saving time. They aren't going to get shorter and she'll just have to live with it! If she even tries pulling the same $#!% now as she did last time around, I'll leave in a heartbeat, even with no place to go. I don't care anymore. Oh #$%&!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just drew all over my arm trying to scratch it with a pen!    lol

Anywho, I might have put up with all of the dictator bullcrap the last time that I lived at "home." That was years ago when I was all about love, peace, tolerance, acceptance & all of that nonsense. I cared more about the moral high ground.
    These days, I'm harder, edgier, angrier. More like I was in high school. Maybe it has something to do with living in the rotten place that I was in for the last year and a half. Maybe I'm just so sick of getting stepped on that I've just stopped caring.    Wow, that sounds terrible. I don't mean that I've stopped caring about others entirely. I'm not sure where I was going with this...nowhere good, obviously. I'll just stop.

Anyway, there have been at least 2 instances that have brought me to tears or close to them. That's never a good sign this early in the game.
    It's to the point now where I might just do a deep conditioning treatment no matter who's around at the time. Rinse it out with the garden hose, if I have to. Or maybe one of the public showers at the beach. Or maybe the ocean itself. The latter definitely helped with my shower woes last time. We shall see. *sigh* No one else lives like this.

My sincere apologies to anyone who might actually be reading this garbage. I often don't make sense.    Feel free to write any reply asking WTF?! Or telling me to kindly save my rants for someone who cares (not that anyone does)...or a simple death threat will suffice.

So anyway, yeah. That's where I stand. I'd love nothing more than to treat the heck out of my hair. Just some "alone time" would be great. But I don't hold out much hope. Perhaps it's time to "poll the audience." 

Might anyone out there have any suggestions for treatments that I could do overnight?

Alright, in other news, Bats Day. Sunday. Huzzah! It looks as if I'll be meeting "fellow spooks" from the other boards that I frequent at 11 am in front of the Haunted Mansion. My look must be perfectly planned and...executed. Bwahahahahaaa! I rather loathe public appearances. 

Rather screwed up my daily zone training by missing a day entirely. Whoops. Made up for it last night by working 2 zones. I'm a bit sore. Have to do abs tomorrow rather than hips because I'm slightly out of order. Ah well. At least I'm workin' it.
    Next month, I think I'll finally start my nightly power walks again. So nice to live in an area that permits them. The drawback is that I can't just jump into the shower afterwards, as is my instinct. Mother would have a cow. No, an entire dairy farm.

Hope I'm able to housesit for my aunt & uncle soon. Unless I start spending the weekends at local hotels (talk about an expensive habit!), housesitting will be my only opportunity to live on my own terms. To breathe and not feel like a prisoner.

Need a trim. Need a trim. Need a trim. Must call Scissor Lady tomorrow!!

Oh yes, the wireless port has been hooked up once again. Somehow, I knew that my little stint about not wanting my sister's laptop after all would work. It wasn't a lie - I really don't want it. But now they must think that since I don't want it, I'll no longer use it.

*eeevil chuckle*

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You'll bet i do! don't ever say that!! we all care

Hang in there girl! I know what it's like, the"i just wanna crawl in bed for a day or maybe a decade" phase visits me often . The hardest thing these days is to get some alone time!!

rant all you want, Lord knows it's helped me many times!

Anyway, Lisabelle has given great advice with the EVOO treatment. You can also try to mix in almond oil, or grapeseed oil.