Well, [insert bad word here], how did I miss all of this?!?  *smacks forehead*  Nancy, I'm sorry you're having to deal with all of this crap.  There's nothing I can say or do to help, I know.  But I'm there for you, as much as cyberspace will allow.  *hugs*  Feel free to email or pm me anytime.

Trisha and Lisabelle-

Don't feel bad about missing this.  It was kinda sudden, although years in the making (if that makes any sense.)

I'm still not handling life well.  I still cry frequently, especially now that my brother and sister know.....now it's real.

I just hope I don't regain the 53 pounds I've lost....and I hope all my hair doesn't fall out.

Angel-

Thank you so much.  I do keep crying, not that I have a choice!   

((((Nancy))))  My sister -in-law is going through a similar porblem and I find it so heartbraking.  Hang in there girl, were here for you.

Hi everyone! 

I figured I'd better stop by and say hi and give an update before ya'll think I've fallen off the edge of the Earth (ok, I've thought about throwing myself off but.....)

The separation is, well, a separation.  Unfortunately we are still living in the same house probably until February or March.  It will help with finances and I'll be able to get some money saved.  I've also become an Avon representative in the attempt to have a little bit of extra income.  I hope I can succeed at making at least some extra money--I need some money to save and some fun money once in a while.

Februay 1 I will be living here in the house alone with Cheyenne.....finances will be tight but do-able.  If it gets too difficulty, when my sister is better, she'll come and help me sell (she's a real estate agent).  The lawyer I saw suggested selling now but my sister advised  against it now (having seen my home and knowing the Albuquerque market--not a good idea right now.).   I hope to be able to stay here indefinitely though---probably an unrealistic dream but I'm trusting in God and I will follow his lead--he is in control not me.

On the hair front, it's getting really long!  I've got to figure out a way to color it very inexpensively as I need to look my best from here on out.  We'll see what I can find.  I hate to do it but I really feel it is necessary at least for a while.

I've stopped losing weight but I has also stopped tracking every single thing that went into my mouth and had stopped exercising.  So, yesterday I cheated and ate anything I wanted (and some I didn't really want) and I've restarted my diet and exercise plan today.

Well, I need to get going and starting cleaning my house so I can get back into the back yard and do more yard work when it's a little warmer.  I really hate yard work but I've gotta figure it out so I'm trying......

Hope all is well with everyone.  I'd like to thank everyone for your care and support.  Stop by and say hi!

Hey there all-

Figured I'd better stop by and say Hi before you'll thought I threw myself off the edge of a cliff (yes, the thought has crossed my mind... )

Not a whole lot going on in the hair front, excep that I used my hair dryer for the first time this morning since May--but I had to dry my hair before church and it was too cold to let my car heater do the work like I usually do.    My hair is still falling out dramatically, people are beginning to notice that my hair is not nearly as thick as it used to be.  I really hope that the hair loss slows soon, I'm begining to have some real fears.  The hair that I do have is getting really lon though, almost to the bottom of my rib cage and it's long enough to start bugging me.  I'm considering getting a good trim, but I'll wait until the divorce is final (since it looks like that is still going to happen) so I can start my new life fresh, if I still want a good trim by then.  Trims will be few and far between in my new single life since my budget will not really allow, and I'll have to save a few dollars each month for anything extra, (clothes, hair cuts, products and anything fun). 

Speaking of clothes.  They are all too big.  I look really unattractive in clothes that are way too big.  But, there's not a thing I can do about it.  Hopefully my sister will lose more weight too and then I can have her clothes in sized 10-14.....

I strayed off my eating plan, but luckily did not regain anything significant (one or two pounds).  I've restarted my plan with a vengance and now I really have to start exercising again.  I'll miss going to the gym (I love the eliptical) but I have plenty of workout videos, weights, and an exercise bike here at home.  On the evenings that I don't have Cheyenne (once HE moves out), I'll probably go walking in the hopes of learning to run....I've always wanted to be able to run and never could in my whole life---I will be able to run before I turn 35, that's my goal.....

Anyway, I've babbled on long enough.  Hope this finds all you well....

later.