Hair: Clarified yesterday and did a CWC-C today. Don't know why, but my hair just felt in need of an extra light conditioning in the shower. I'm paying for it now though. Suave conditioners make my hair gummy. The strands all stick together and tangle hopelessly. I wonder how on earth I used Suave all through high school. 
    Right now, hair is down, dry and combed. But of course, I forgot a hairtie today, so I won't be able to braid. 

Work: Woooooo! Gorgeous just left my office. hehe    Now I'm all giddy. I even had to cover my ears with my hair because I could totally feel myself blushing.
    I wish that I had more time in the mornings to put myself together for the offhand chances that he does walk into my office. I know I've said it before, but he's sooo beautiful. I wish that I was at least wearing makeup or something. 

Otherwise, I'm still sorting through leases, surfing the net and being impatient with the droves of idiots on the phone. 

Health: Weight is back up to 115. Bugger. I blame Aunt Flo and the mass amounts of Godiva that she demanded yesterday. I still haven't resumed my power walking routine either. It becomes less of a priority as my weight decreases, but I still want to do it. If worse comes to worse, I could just end up scheduling it around dates with the lovely drummer boy. Speaking of which...

Dating: Once again, it seems, I've reached that familiar point where I know that things are not going to work out as I'd like them to and yet I'm not ready to walk away from it all just yet. On the fence as ever.    Man, why can't this stuff ever just be simple?

Other: The weekend was a gas! I earned $50 for one night of housesitting.    My room was cleaned and partially rearranged: my dresser now has 5 electric candles on it and looks awesome, my laptop is again being stored in its case under my bed, my desk was moved into my sister's room and replaced by my mother's old hope chest. I'm hoping to get 2 more electric candles for it to mirror the ones on my dresser.
    Also, on Sunday night, drummer boy invited me to see the studio where his band rehearses...which just happens to be about 5 minutes from my house. It's a very small, heavily textured burgundy room, taken up mostly by the drum kit. Gear was piled up against every wall and cords covered the black floor.
    My co-worker showed me pictures on his computer, which he had recently set up in the studio and then let me hear 2 unreleased Silver Side songs. One of which has never been heard by anyone besides myself and the band.    Talk about an insider's pass!

So anyway, things are going pretty well, all things considered. Enjoying the good stuff, taking the less-than-perfect stuff in stride.

Oh yeah, and I'd also like to offer a big WELCOME BACK!!! to my Pantene sista, Maggie. 

'Til next time!

Morning shift today. 

Been blitzing on antioxidants lately. Taking 2 vitamin E capsules per day, finished off my green tea yesterday and got started on fruit tea, been using white tea bodywash as well as white tea & ginger body spray...I even have green tea toothpaste.

A few days ago, I drove to Predisio Park after work and walked around there until nightfall. I retraced the steps that K and I had made on our last date, stood in the giant pentagram that I hadn't seen since I'd gone there with my last real boyfriend, and explored a bit more on my own. It's a beautiful place, much bigger than I was aware of. And it was a bit easier to face while being on the phone with the new guy half of the time.

Now, I have only to visit Balboa Park and maybe downtown before I feel satisfied, and I need to familiarize myself with those areas anyway. K is becoming more of a distant memory, and his predecessors seem like a whole other lifetime ago. I think they call it closure.

In hair news, just the usual CWC routine this morning. No vinegar rinse. Again, I forgot a hairtie, so I won't be able to braid at least until I get home...if at all. The length smells pretty good though. I'm not sure if that's from the S&C's that I've been using or from it brushing against the body spray on the back of my shirt, but it's rather nice nonetheless.
    Still haven't scheduled a trim, but I have written myself a note to do so.

Today, I'm just kinda feeling ho-hum. Just sort of going through the motions of life even though the life has been temporarily sucked out of me. I say temporarily because no matter what happens, I know it will come back eventually. Life's all ups and downs...it can't rain all the time and it can't be roses all the time. That's kinda the beauty of it.
    But for now, I'm just in sort of a gray period. Light gray like fog or mist, but with less presence. Subtle and a bit dreary, but barely there somehow. It's hard to explain.

A friend of mine told me something last night that helps him stay more positive than he otherwise would be: out of something bad comes something good.
Hope he's right.

It's a bitch, yeah, life's a roller coaster ride
The ups and downs will make you scream sometimes
It's hard believing that the thrill is gone
But we gotta go around again, so let's hold on
                         -Bon Jovi, Lie To Me