Alright, just a quick update since I only have about 40 minutes left at work. Still no internet at home. 

La Diosa: I know the feeling! lol Government standards are bunk, if you ask me. My ideal weight is between 105 - 110. Anything over that and it's like moving underwater. Unfortunately the last 5-10 lbs. are the hardest to lose. 

And I've been plucking since I was 17...you silly thing.
Thanx for the well wishes too. We need them. And all the prayers you can send us.

Trisha: My scale is on drugs. I'm pretty sure. 

Hair: Clarifying day. Purity wash, ACV rinse, 2nd purity wash, condition. Air dry, braid, done. Hair is always so dry & difficult to comb on clarifying days. Static creates tangles, so with every stroke of the comb (heh almost typed "bomb" again), new tangles form. Best thing to do is just get it into a braid so I don't have to keep combing and combing...
    I might add another conditioning to the clarifying routine in the future.

Health: Ignoring it for awhile. Too tired & busy & my schedule is too erratic right now. Time is precious. And sadly, there have been a few "indulgences" here and there. 

Dating: Oh boy. It seems that the AVP of our company is onto us! 
And we still need as many prayers as possible that things work out in our favor. We - or rather, he - is faced with something very serious and very personal.

Other: Friday night was fabulous. Had dinner at Olive Garden with drummer boy. Lord, he is so beautiful!
    Also, my nails are now a deep, hot rod, OPI blue.

Ciao for now!

Oy. Morning shift.

Hair got a CWC + leave-in crème + shine spray. I brought a pair of black barrettes to work with me, but I think I'm just going to braid. As with the rest of me, my hair could probably benefit from a "casual day."

Yesterday, I did go with the barettes, but found the overall look to be too dressy for work. Not to say that I won't wear "princess hair" to work again; just not when the rest of me is done up to the 9's.

So today's just casual (not that I had time to be otherwise). Yesterday's jeans, my "Thom Yorke shirt," no makeup, minimal jewelry. Whaaatever. Hey, even Davey Havok isn't glammed up all the time.  

Work has been slow so far. Rather unusual for a Thursday. So I'm just chillin' with microwave popcorn & a Beethoven CD...answering the phone and hoping that my Fire cutie doesn't stop by. He has this infallible ability to sense when I'm looking my absolute worst and choose those days to walk into my office.    Men.

hehe...Our Information Systems Support guy just noticed that my nails aren't black.
"Moving away from the black, I see," he remarked.
"The black's not going anywhere," I smiled. "Don't worry."
"Well come on," says he. "You can't be a goth all your life."
"Oh yes you can, hunnay," I smirked.
And with a laugh, he turned and left my office.    Oy. Why is it that so many mundanes think that being a goth is something that one "grows out of" over time? It's not commonplace for someone to walk up to a Christian or a surfer or a musician and say, "Oh, you'll get over that in time." Seriously.

I don't suppose it's totally their fault though. Mundanes don't understand. Heck, part of the gothic allure is that mundanes don't get it. They misinterpret it as merely a fashion statement or perhaps a sign of rebellion, individuality, creativity or non-conformity. And while it is all of those things, that most certainly isn't the end of it. Nope, these are just the superficial details that (usually) allude to a much bigger picture.

Think of a stick poking out of a large body of water. Why do boats swerve wide curves around the stick rather than just sailing over it? Because they know that the stick is likely attached to a fallen log or tree beneath the surface of the water that could seriously damage the boat.
   And there you have it: a study in what lies beneath. What you can see is a mere indication of what you can't.
   For the true goths, the affinity for all things black is only a reflection and a by-product of an all-over æsthetic, a mindset, a subculture. We don't do it to look scary (at least not all the time  ), we don't do it to freak out the faceless sheep* of society (although it usually has that effect and we certainly don't mind  ) and we don't do it to rebel against absolutely everything YOU do because it sucks (even though, for the most part, it does).
   The reality is that it's just part of who we are. We're not going to "grow out of it" and we're not going to change for anybody except ourselves. If that upsets the happy mundane pastorale, then well...we've done our jobs, haven't we?  

*faceless sheep term borrowed with kind permission from an illustrious elder goth

Hair: Today, like every other Monday, was clarifying day. The usual routine, no leave-in's. I've been finger combing periodically, but am saving the actual combing for my break. My hair gets staticky on clarifying days and lately, we've been having another Santa Ana.    Static causes tangles and combing causes static. So I'm only combing once today before I put my hair in a braid (where it can't be staticky) and forget about it.

Last night on What Not To Wear, a lady with very long, thin, fine, burgundy hair got cut to above shoulder length. The stylist kept telling her that the length was making her hair look as thin as possible. He then divided her hair into 2 sections, tying them at shoulder length with rubber bands  and snipped above them. He then evened out the color (which didn't look half bad, I'll admit, and he did use a demi-permanent) and blowfried it to "perfection," using a round brush on the ends to turn them under.
    My father, who was watching this episode with me, looked at me and said, "That's how you should do your hair, [Angel]."
    Uhm, I've had my hair done that way before (with the exception of the burgundy coloring) and it made me look 1.) like Jodie Foster, and 2.) older than I was comfortable with.    So yeah, no thanx, dad. Though, I might consider the burgundy demi-permanent. 
    My family talks about nominating me for that show all the time. hehe God help them if they ever do. 

Health: Last night, I began power walking again. And I feel like a slug - especially going up the steep hill toward the middle of my walk - even though weight seems to be around 113 - 115 this week. I need to get used to the terrain again.

Faaashion, Dahling: I'm put together today, but nothing fancy. Jeans, t-shirt, 2 rings, 1 bracelet, 1 pair of silver hoop earrings and 2 pairs of silver ball studs. Makeup is just concealer, powder, clear mascara and lipgloss. Simple, natural and not trying too hard. It's rather a waste to get dressed up for work anyway.  
   Newport News has a rather stunning satin cami with corset-style boning that would make a flattering addition to my summer goth wardrobe. And my mood ring currently matches my eyes...weird.
   Tonight, I should find time for a new manicure. I was pleasantly surprised that the last one held up for a week without looking too ratty, so I'm back on OPI with a vengeance.    I've brought a few files to the office so I can get my nails in shape and even out the surfaces that need it.

Other: K and I still talk (well, text) occasionally like friends, though it's become more of a casual acquaintanceship at this point. I know that life will either bring him closer to me or totally phase him out over time...so I'm not really worried about it.
   As for drummer boy, we're still seeing each other, but I decided over the weekend that I do not want a relationship with him. Quite simply, he just isn't what I need. Of course, I have been known to change my mind, so I will continue to see him until I'm quite certain and comfortable with the idea of letting him go.
   
Still no internet at the house, and I don't expect that there will be for some time. Finances are tapped out. Thankfully, I do have a laptop and can get access from just about anywhere. The trick is keeping it charged.  

That's all for today. Peace.

LD: Oh, you must have gotten the lace trenchcoat, yes? It is cute.    I hope you'll post some pix after you have it altered.

And lace just happens to be a gothic staple. Ahem. As long as it's black lace.  

Anyway, this was the cami that I was talking about:
http://s7d2.scene7.com/is/image/SpiegelBrands/S0807003_NAX08_060$216x270$