Hair: Just a simple CWC today. No leave-in's just yet. My sis again took over the bathroom before I could get to my leave-in crème and my hair ended up drying without it.    I hate sharing a bathroom.  
   So now my hair is completely dry, and I mean completely! Thanx to our Santa Ana weather (it's 80° in freaking January!!! ), it's full of static and flying all over the place. I hate SoCal.  

When it's time for my break at 3:00, I'll dry oil with EVOO and braid just like yesterday.
Today, however, my mother saw the bottle of EVOO that I brought in and asked what it was for. When I told her that I used it on my hair, she freaked and went off on a 10-minute tyraid, calling me "anal retentive" and a "basket case" or some such rot. And professed that if my goal was to grow my hair to my behind, that oil certainly wasn't going to make it look better. Etc., etc., etc.!!! My only retaliation was some sarcastic, off-hand comment about how just because I didn't dye, fry and process, that I was the freak.    I hate parents that freak out about everything!  
   The sad thing is that this woman was once my hair idol. Or, well, I suppose she still is, but not...erm, currently. See, back in the late '60's and early '70's, when my mother was younger, her hair was waist length. The ends literally reached the belt loops of her bell bottom jeans.    From the first instance that my sister and I saw pictures of our mother from back then, we both decided to grow our hair long and deemed her as our hair idol.
   *sigh* I hate being let down by my idols.  

Other: Made the effort to actually wear makeup today. Probably wasn't the wisest decision with my skin broken out as it is, but I didn't really have a choice. The new guy that my sister is seeing is coming over tonight to meet the family, so I wanted to at least attempt to look put together.  
   At first, I was going for a sort of 1920's silent film star thing...pallid complexion, subtle gray eyeshadow, long, black lashes, dark lipstick...and I wanted to put my hair up. But after about 20 minutes or so on my lips alone (applying, messing up, attempting to fix, messing up, reapplying, messing up...), I ran out of time. My hair was still down and staticky and not even combed when I left for work. I hate running out of time.  
   By the time I'd gotten to work, my lips looked and felt utterly dreadful, so I stopped into the ladies' room, wiped my mouth clean and started over. Balm, concealer, liner, lipstick - ugh! Swipe, swipe, dab, dab, fix, fix... then finally went to my office. After about half an hour (and the aforementioned lecture from my mother), I whipped out my compact to check my lips and sure enough, they were smudged.    
   It's almost funny...every time I wear lipstick, I swear that it's the last time. I hate the stuff! So I gave up yet again, got up from my desk, went back into the ladies' room and wiped clean again. I'm just not the lipstick type.  

Oh, but that wasn't the only fiasco. I tried out a new mascara today - L'Oréal Telescopic or whatever in carbon black. Ugh! Dreadful. Putting it on is an absolute joke. I'll stick to Maybelline Great Lash, thanx!    I hate wasting money on mascaras that suck.  
   Thankfully, the rest of my makeup seems to be surviving. My new L'Oréal foundation is ok. Quite pale, although I'm not sure if it's even pale enough. I might just need to give in and buy a pure white foundation to mix with commercial foundations.

Other Things I Hate: When foundation settles into natural laugh lines around my nose and mouth and make me appear to have wrinkles, having tea & black licorice that outlasted the guy who gave them to me, smokers, drunk drivers, drug users, caffeine, casual sex, rude people, mascaras that irritate my eyes, being overdrawn, forgetting to bring food to work with me, mushrooms, onions, red lights that take forever when I'm in a hurry, Santa Anas, having acne, the fact that I can't find reasonably priced eyeshadows in the perfect shades of slate gray and plum, getting ripped off, porn, MEN!!!, hypoglycemic attacks and being broke.    Oh, there's more. I'm just not going to write about it right now. I'm having one of those "I hate everything" days.  

Something Else: Went for my break at 3:00 and realized that I did not bring a hairtie from home and thus, could not braid.    So I attempted to comb my hair out as best as I possibly could. The problem is that static causes my hair to tangle hopelessly.
    I ended up just working a little EVOO and water through the length, then combing it with both my seamless comb and fingers. My hair is now an oily, tangled mess and will stay that way until I go home. 

One more thing I hate: Today!! 

Lisabelle: *hugs* Yup, gloss is what I normally use. And I do own a lip stain, but it's a roll-on, so it's difficult to apply accurately. Totally hear you on the eyeshadow thing too. In most cases, you really do get what you pay for.
   As for clown white, yeeeaaagh!!    Real goths don't use it.    It's heavy, loaded with oil and gives horrifically uneven coverage. Egad, I hope you are not still using it! It's death for skin!  
   Actually, I plan to order a pure white foundation toner from Amphigory (from whom I also purchased my white loose powder) and just add it to my regular foundation.

Trisha: *hugs* I wish you were my mom! My only objection is that my former husband lives in Missouri.  
   And yeah, obviously, lipstick doesn't last too long on me either. hehe I'm a gloss gal, but every so often, I've decided to give lipstick another shot. Always with the same result. Isn't that the definition of insanity? Doing the same thing the same way over and over and expecting different results each time?  

Hair: Went into the usual double bun updo last night to meet my sister's new guy. After he left, I took it down and...whoa.    In addition to the oil and static, it now had volume and a slight curl, which turned an awful mess into a gigantic awful mess! lol It looked like Madame Leota meets '80's rock. Even funnier was that my sister said it looked good that way.  
   Anyhow, this morning, I got to wash all of the hairspray, oil and static out with a WCC. Used the Restoratives leave-in crème and air dried as usual. Hair is blissfully recovered.    I even brought 2 hairties to work today - 1 to use during my break and 1 for the drawer in my desk in case I forget some other time.

Current products I'm using for CWC and WCC routines:

• Suave Juicy Green Apple conditioner
• Pantene Restoratives Time Renewal shampoo
• Pantene Restoratives Time Renewal conditioner

Current leave-in:

• Pantene Restoratives Breakage Defense Detangling Leave-In Crème

In Other News: Mother & I got invited by a co-worker to watch his band perform on Feb. 16th at the beach. He said that he could get us tickets if we wanted to go, and I totally will. He's kinda cute (tee hee  ) and his band is pretty darn good.

Went to bed with makeup on last night    so this morning, I washed, exfoliated and left a clay masque on for half an hour. After rinsing it off, I followed with an astringent and...ahhhhh! Much better!  
   Also did a load of laundry, soaked my new piercings in a saline solution, had breakfast and cleaned out and refilled my humidifier...all before having to leave for work.  
   Every day, I've been doing some kind of cleansing/renewing ritual, be it clarifying, exfoliating, shaving, using masques, whatever. Slowly filtering K out of my system. I want to be completely revived before I start seeing anyone else.
   In days to come, I will visit places around town that we had gone to together. Both for my own benefit (just getting reaqcuainted with said places) and so that if I ever go to any of them with someone new, I won't ever have to think, gee...the last time I was here, I was with K.    New memories shouldn't be tainted with the old.

Anyway, back to work.

Hair: The usual WTC for Fridays. Current products used for the process are:

• Pantene Restoratives Time Renewal shampoo
• Pantene Restoratives Time Renewal Replenishing Mask
• Pantene Restoratives Breakage Defense Conditioner

I wash all of my hair once and squeeze the water out with a microfiber towel. Then, I work the treatment into the length of my hair and twist it into a loose bun, covering with a shower cap, and leave it that way for an hour. After rinsing, I condition as usual.

Restoratives Breakage Defense Detangling Leave-In Crème was worked through the length also and I've left it to air dry. Instead of braiding, I'm going to leave my hair down today so it can be straight for a S&D tonight.

Other: Change is imminent. I sense it.
   After looking over my W-2, the disappointing reminder that I desperately need a new job, I realize that finding one will probably happen for me later this year.
   And I find myself looking forward to February. A new month will bring a new hair measurement, a new avatar, a new exercise regimen and goodness knows what else.
   Also, I can't help but wonder if this will be the year that I finally become completely straight edge. Since K was the only thing keeping it from me this year, I secretly wondered, if we were ever to part ways, whether I would convert. Now that we have gone our separate ways, I still don't know whether I'm ready to completely commit to the X. heh Maybe one day, I'll wake up and realize that I already have. Whatever.

So, that's about it for now. Need to wash my car, change my buddy icon, pick up my bass again, find a job and figure out my life.