Hair: Had to do a WCC this morning after 2 days of CWC's. Can't allow too much conditioner build-up. Washed once with Breakage Defense shampoo and left Time Renewal conditioner in until the end of my shower. Then conditioned again with Suave Tropical Coconut. It has a lovely scent, but burns the back of my neck.

After the usual leave-in & air drying, hair is just down today. Might as well be since I just washed it. But I'll braid it before my walk tonight.
 
Had a dream (actually, more of a nightmare) last night that I'd gotten all of my hair cut off! As in above shoulder length!   It wasn't my idea at all. I think my parents had actually arranged it and I have no idea why I went along with it instead of running away screaming. I was very against it, but I also didn't seem to have much of a choice in the matter.
    My first thought was, "how am I going to explain this to the folks at LongLocks?! They'll consider me a traitor!" But I tried to stay optimistic, thinking, "well, even though I have to start all over again, at least I can grow it out with no damage." Even so, a traumatic experience. You can imagine my relief when I woke up still having long hair. 
    As far as what it may mean, I put dream analysis right up there with astrology on the ol' BS meter.    According to various "dream dictionaries," possible interpretations could be:

• A forced loss of strength, power or identity, as if someone is trying to hold me back
• Feeling weak, vulnerable, victimized or unfairly criticized
• A perceived threat to my identity or hair itself
• Being forcibly deprived of sensual or physical drives
• That my passiveness will cause me loss, mental anguish and generally getting screwed over
• That I feel someone is trying to make me conform to their ideals (which I may view as too conservative or confining)

The only thing I can say to any of that is no $#!%, Sherlock! Oy. Why can't I ever just have happy dreams? All of mine are like

Other Stuff: Probably going to dinner tonight for my sister's b-day (which was actually yesterday, but she wasn't home). Work is retarded, especially the phone. I can barely keep up with it. Pretty sure that a certain male friend of mine does indeed have a thing for me (very unrequited, I might add). My Victoria's Secret order still hasn't arrived. Payday is tomorrow and that doesn't seem to be soon enough! Was hoping to see a certain musical co-worker from the Fire side today, but it didn't happen. Ah well.
Hope everybody has a good day. Peace.

Hair: Friday WTC routine. Washed once with Breakage Defense shampoo and treated for an hour using Time Renewal Replenishing Mask + the last of my EVOO. I'm done with straight oils for awhile now, I think. Anyway, chased that with Time Renewal conditioner, which I'm almost out of. I need to go to the store and get a new bottle of Breakage Defense conditioner.

Other: Payday didn't help nearly enough.    And as much as I need to just not spend any $$$ for 2 weeks, that just isn't an option. My tax return is my only hope now and I won't have it for a few months yet. Ugh. Everything's pretty much sucking eggs at the moment, and of course, this is when the whole world wants to mess with me.  

Hair: CWC routine. My new hair schedule is as follows:

Monday: Clarify
Tuesday: CWC
Wednesday: CWC or WCC
Thursday: CWC
Friday: WTC
Saturday: CWC
Sunday: CWC

Baaadly need a trim! My last one was in November and I already need another. The last inch and a half of my hair is really dry. Clarifying yesterday and the Santa Ana conditions haven't helped that.

Lately, I've been wondering if having long hair is really worth it. My hair is sooo fine, sooo thin and tangles sooo easily.    Perhaps my parents are right and it really does look ridiculous long. Can something look wrong and feel right? I guess I'm kind of having second thoughts about the whole long hair thing in general.
    Don't get me wrong, I love, love, LOVE long hair and I absolutely have a long-haired spirit. I'm just not sure if it's right for the hair that I was given during my time on Earth.
    Is it normal to have second thoughts or reconsider? 

Other: I think I still have a vitamin E capsule stuck in my throat. Ack!
    I also find myself in the paradox of wanting to fall in love, yet being in no shape to do so. It's been so long since I had a real honest-to-goodness romance. But I know that I must deal with the residual K business first.
    Also, I've decided that OPI's Lincoln Park After Dark shade sucks. It turns black when it sets completely, and if I wanted black nails, I would have just used black polish. Oy. I may well go back to drugstore brands. 
    Oh! And Cover Girl finally came out with a suuuper pale foundation that I can't wait to try. Yays.

Hair: CWC + leave-in crème + just a leeettle bit of EVOO on the ends and the underside strands which were very dry. As a whole, hair is feeling remarkably soft today. It seems to have absorbed at least some of the oil as it air dried, but I'll be braiding it anyway. I dislike using oil, but with the weather as dry as it's been, it was necessary. 

Nails: 2 coats black, 1 coat sheer, shimmery navy blue. Makes for a just-barely-metallic black. 

Other: A storm was rolling in as I went for my power walk last night. I was still sore from my workout the day before, so I took things a little slower than usual. I still jogged across streets and large driveways, but took time to notice and savor things as I walked...like the wind as it whistled through the 2nd and 3rd hoops in my ears, the dark stormclouds swallowing the moon in the sky and she glimmer of my nails under the streetlamps. It was an absolutely beautiful night.
    This morning, there were faint remnants of rain.    And I really hope that it's not done.

K sent me a pic last night of Steffen Keth singing and it appeared to be a live shot. That bloody booger might have gone to the De/Vision show in LA last night. Grrrrrr! I so wanted to go. Alas...
    And why, oh why, can't men ever just LET GO ALREADY?!?!?!   Honestly, the way they desperately try to hold onto a person or relationship that has clearly moved on without them is pathetic. Get it through your thick skulls, guys - over is over! If you can't handle letting go, then you shouldn't have screwed up in the first place. Sheesh! 

Anyway, after wondering for weeks what became of my Victoria's Secret orders, I checked the UPS website this morning and tracked them. Turns out that both were delivered several days ago. So it was family interception.
    So, I texted my sister to find out if the 'rents had tossed my packages into her room by mistake (even though they would have been clearly addressed to me) and she said that she hadn't noticed any packages, but gave me permission to search through her room. lol So I'll do that this afternoon. If I don't find them there, I'm searching the rest of the house because my real suspicion is that my OCD mother took them and hid them somewhere.    I'm not one to rush to judgment, but for the last few months, she has been opening my mail. I had to cancel my paper bank statements just to prevent her & my father from reading them. So is it illogical to think that they (she) may be behind the disappearance of my packages?

The Fleet Manager at work brought Valentine's Day goodies from See's for my mother & I.    He's such a sweet guy. My mother got a bag of toffee-ettes and I got hot hearts, which are like heart-shaped Hot Tamales. hehe I love cinnamon. 

So anyway, that's what's going on in Angel's world of late.
Happy Heart Day!

JL: Thanx!    I think my hair is actually past BSL now. And if not, it soon will be. And I had a fantastic time at the show!  

Trisha: Thanx, mom. I needed that.    You're totally right though. It's just hair and it grows back.

Speaking Of Which: I clarified today. The usual routine and products. However, on Friday night, I trashed my shower cap and went back to pinning my hair up in the shower with a plastic pteradactyl beak clip. I'd absolutely had it with shower caps getting loose, breaking, letting water in and just generally feeling awkward. Not to mention the whole "greenhouse effect" from scalp heat.    So I'm done with them.
   It's a little weird right now adjusting to my beak clip again after so long...but I'll get used to it.

Saturday Night: Silver Side. Incredible. I can't seem to say enough good things about this band. There's not one weak musician in it. The guitar player is great, the bass player is OMG amazing, and...who knew that my beloved co-worker was such a bloody amazing drummer? My mother even described him as "sick good." lol The singer isn't my favorite by a long shot, but he does a really great job engaging everyone in the audience and making them feel included. Even people in the back of the room. And that's so important.
   Great show though. They even had a bellydancer for one song, which was a new feature. And wow, quite a few hot guys there that night. Both on and offstage.    

Hottest of all was my co-worker who spotted me right as I walked in and gave me a hug!!   I don't even know how he even recognized me with so much makeup and jewelry as I was wearing - I was pretty punk-goth that night. Perhaps it was the black clothing...and maybe the hair.  
   I actually got to hug him twice that night. Once when mother & I arrived and once more when we left. *swoon* What started as a subtle fascination has grown into a legitimate crush...even though he smokes    and I'm pretty sure that he has a gf.    I don't stand a ghost of a chance anyway, so what's the harm if I like him and just keep it to myself?    I know my secret is safe with all of you.

Anyway, yeah, great night. Totally made my weekend. Heck, that might have made my whole month! Awesome, awesome show. Not my mother's favorite type of music by far, but even she enjoyed it. I can definitely see why this band is a local phenomenon.    And I wish that my father could have seen them as well. Maybe I'll bring him to the next show.

Other: I was hoping that said co-worker would swing by my office today and ask what I thought of the show in true rock star fashion, but no such luck.    I gave myself a new manicure last night and put on a little makeup this morning just in case. It won't be the last time I see him anyhow.

Nails: 2 coats black, 1 coat black rainbow microglitter.

Trish:    So glad that you weren't offended by that!

Hair: The usual CWC routine. I used a little too much leave-in crème and now my hair feels gummy.    I brought some corn oil to work with me so I can oil my hair before I braid it during my break. Corn oil is heavy. I used it a few days ago just to see what would happen. But if I keep my hair braided, it's not a huge deal.
    Hair is sooo dry right now, it needs all the help it can get. I've definitely decided to schedule my next trim around the 1st of March.

Other: Haven't seen hide nor hair of Fire cutie/drummer boy since Saturday night (which is a rather ironic joke, given that he has no hair). Gah! It's driving me bonkers! When you like someone, you want to see them all the time. So my ears perk when I hear the back door of the office building open or when I hear someone's footsteps in the hall, heading toward my office. I keep hoping against hope that it's him...but it never is. My heart leaps into my mouth at the very thought of him dropping by my office again.
    Drooling over his pictures on the internet isn't enough. I want to talk to the man himself! lol 

My stupid manicure is chipping already. Argh! I can never manage to keep one decent for more than a few days. 

Anyway, my break's coming up in about 10 minutes, so...later, gators!