AAAAH! I just ordered my first pair of hair sticks!  I HAVE to grow my hair out now.  It must be because it's Spring that I'm spending so much these days.  New earrings, expensive shampoo, now hair sticks!  This isn't like me!   I'm going to have to get another job to pay for all this stuff!   

Thanks, CurlGirl.  You're right, they DID call to me!

This morning I debated whether or not to wash my hair.  I really enjoy washing my hair, so I did, but I wish I hadn't   Now it's so slippery I can't do anything with it.  Also, I'm trying to decide whether to have the ends trimmed.  I don't see any split ends, but the ends are so irregular that they just  stick out every which way when my hair is down.   But if I get it trimmed, it might not be long enough to pull back.  I'm so glad this is the biggest problem I have right now!   I'm trying to hold out until the end of June to get a trim.  It's my birthday month and I figure that's as good a time as any to aim for.  What will I have by then? another inch and a half or so?  So if I get an inch trimmed off, I'll still be ahead of where I am now!  Yeah, that's what I'll do!

How very kind of you, Angel, to offer me comfort in your own time of grief.  Thank you from the bottom of my heart

I don't know what got into me yesterday, writing all that stuff about my sister.  Sometimes the grief just washes over me and I get a little frantic.  I guess with spring coming again and the anniversary of my nephew's death coming up, it has become fresh in my mind. 

On a lighter note, I bought some of those little tiny claws to keep the hair out of my face.  I dropped one and couldn't find it right away and almost stepped on it.  That would be an owie! 

What do you call a fish with no eyes? Fsh 

Thank you, CurlGirl.  Your kind words mean a lot!

One of the theraputic aspects of the internet is the anonymity of it.  You develop relationships, but there is still a "distance" that protects you.  This makes it easy to voice things that might be difficult to say in person or face to face.

Your sister has obviously had a difficult time with her loss.  No parent ever expects to bury their child - regardless of the child's age.  The family tension makes it even more difficult.  As her sister, you share her pain. 

I pray that you and your sister can find the strength and peace to resolve any inner turmoil and rejoice in the positive, happy memories of her son.

Okay, it's starting to happen   I start a new project and get into perfectionist mode and start having second thoughts as to whether or not I can do this at all.  My hair has done well with what I've been doing so far, which is wash with infusium shampoo and conditioner, or sometimes a lemon scented clarifying shampoo and conditioner that I bought at Whole Foods, don't remember the brand.  So why am I worrying?   ???
Maybe I'm not doing it right, I'm not doing anything special!!  How silly, my hair seems to be okay for the state it's in which is that it is still very choppy from growing out layers, the ends are a little wild, but I don't see any split ends (although at my age, they're tougher to spot  )  So I'll stick to what I'm doing, maybe try some of the recipes I've seen on this forum just for fun(I did try the honey, aloe vera and conditioner treatment) and not worry whether I'm doing it "right".     Yeah, that's what I'll do